Preparing for a 1st Birthday!!

When I think of Emsley..so much goes through my mind...I will never forget the day I found out I was pregnant with her, June 6th, 2007...It was the same day we saw Olyvia's sweet face for the very first time...This day will always be embedded in my memory...I also tearfully recall June 26th, 2007..the day the doctors told me we would lose our baby and immediate surgery was necessary...I was heartbroken...another child lost...

June 28th, 2007...at my post-op appointment, blood work confirmed an active pregnancy, and once again, the doctors were wheeling me in...With the swish of a wand...a tiny heartbeat in my uterus...The doctors were wrong..Science was wrong...our baby was..a tiny shadow of what appeared to be a "peapod"...but there, a surprise to all..the beginning of a life.

Emsley, your life was saved for a reason..I believe this..From the very first stage of "life", yours was compromised on so many levels. Yet...through all of the obstacles you faced beginning at only 5 weeks of age..you succumbed all doubts and continued to flourish..I remember my morning sickness (oh to well), I remember watching my tummy grow as you grew..There are times I feel a twitch in my stomach, and it reminds me of the first time I felt you kick...

If there is anything I want you to grow up knowing, it is that you are HERE for a reason..God has great intentions for you...He saved you. When Science said you were no more and took you from me, somehow your life was gently placed safely in my uterus..It was here for eight months you grew..until January 25th 2008...you ARE a miracle my love...and there is nothing that will ever convince me otherwise..

Sunday marks such a milestone in all of our lives...You have brought me so much happiness. In a way, I believe you saved me...After so many losses, you came..at the right time, when I had just begun to lose all hope. You came..You make me smile everyday...You are the highlight of your fathers day, and you are and will always be my baby...

From pink, green and lavender decor..to the sound of laughter that surrounds the Children's Museum...to the family and friends that will surround you on this wonderful day..and with all of the kisses and hugs you will receive..I wish you nothing but happiness, and I can only pray you will continue to feel the love that surrounds you......