Return to work:(

Back to work
March 29, 2008
I returned back to work on Thursday.
Wednesday evening, I wept thinking of leaving the girls and what I would miss out on throughout the day. I thought of breakfast, our morning dance to "Last Dollar", Emma's welcoming smile as she awakens at 9:00 a.m....I thought of it all...I missed these moments before I even laid my head down that evening.
As I grabbed my purse (yes, purse not diaper bag!) and headed out the door I kissed my family good-bye and headed to work. Sad...
On my way to work I began to think...We are grateful that we are able to care for our children without childcare. We may lose out on a few hours of sleep, but in the end, our children will always have us, and the comfort of familiar faces. I remebered how my father struggled all of those years working multiple jobs to care for us so my mother could be a stay at home mom. I never wanted my husband to miss out on all of the joys of his children, so I have to work. I have to work to give my girls opportunities. I have to work to ensure we can purchase them their first car (even if it is old and rusted) and so we can go on family vacations. I have to work to ensure their is money for their college tuitions, and for prom dresses and accessories....
I have to work so my husband and I can still enjoy one GOOD night out and not worry that we are taking from the girls...
I have to work......and it is O.K.....
Yes I am sad..I look over this site at least once an hour to remind myself of this...and I smile...
Everything will work out, it always does